Ain't No Sunshine

This song has been bouncing around my head for days.

A better day.

This whole process is a series of ups and downs. Yesterday felt way down. Today feels better. The kids are staying with me for an extra night. Friday night I have no obligations. The pub is an option, but I don't feel like being there alone. A movie would be nice, but that might get old too quickly. Keeping busy makes things easier.

I decided to make to do lists at work. The first item on it is to make to do lists. Funny, adding to the blog was not on the list.

Relationship rebound

When I was younger I remember that after a break up, I would never want to be in a relationship again. Ever! The feeling always faded. Oddly, I haven't really felt that way. Until today. Today, I just want to push everyone away. If no one is close, then no one can hurt me.

How does someone come to trust again? Is there anyway to unload the baggage of previous relationships? I guess over time I will find this out, but I want to know right now.

This guardedness, this concern, makes me worry that I won't let someone in, or I will just rush right through, ignoring warning signs. It will take someone special.